Dude, take it from me. An incident happened in my personal life and I fucking collapsed, probably had a mental breakdown without formally seeing anyone, hence why I turned into an embarrassment on here and in the end had to walk away for a break as long as I did to sort my shit out.
What I'm trying to say is it's normal to feel shite and have a wobble every now and then, the first and most important step is realising that you're not having a great time and then putting things into action to bounce back. TF365 and TFF are/were fucking awesome places to be (and still are) but there's a world outside this forums walls. Log off, take as long away from the screen as you need and come back only if you're ready and wanting to post again. You're in a bit of a shitty situation at the moment but will bounce back - my PM's and social media are always open to you buddy. Take it easy and give me a shout any hour of the day/night if you want to talk to someone.