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Glad it turned out “okay” @Carnivore Chris. Look after yourself. I think I burnt out a couple of months ago with work and life. It reached the point of being very negative and snapping at my bosses and resulted in me breaking down in front of one of them. It all became too much. I took way more on than I should have been and I also bottled stuff up and didn’t seek support from others which resulted in an out of the blue moment or two. I also later developed a lot of physical symptoms that I’m still getting over but all testing I’ve had have come back fine. Stress and anxiety can have serious implications and we all need to take time to reset or switch off. I use this forum as an outlet I guess, sometimes going off and being angry at little things which I am not usually like in person. It’s quite a realisation that maybe all hasn’t been too well in the past. I have so many good things ahead of me and now I’ve moved into my very own home with my partner, I’m hoping this further helps me. Didn’t intend to post the above, but it’s important to just get things off the chest every now and then.

Yeah that's exactly what it was. When you do the equivalent of miles and miles walking everyday due to work(since you run around like a cunt), to 100 meters to the shop at most and you don't eat as well as normal it is a big change. I usually eat alot more but I wasn't for some reason in recent days. So it makes sense mate. But I can't stop eating again now. It all came from the pains. That's what started the panic. Now I know the cause, the worry has gone now, so have the pains. Amazing what a heart scan and blood pressure test can do for you. The relief. I think they may have passed now. @Teso dos BichosBichos sold me some dodgy weed:- Nah but I wouldn't say it was that, but likely induced it aswell after some shit weeks. I don't smoke as many ciggies now, don't drink anymore but a nice smoke chills you out at night. Lockdowns make it easy to overboard though. There was a maths teacher at my secondary school(actually taught by mother as well, so he was from the canning days...) and he used to start headbutting the blackboard. So I always worry about maths teachers .

Not a bad little productive afternoon.

Have seen “grounding” or tuning into your senses using a 5,4,3,2,1 method work for anxiety attacks. Helps having someone with you for this though.

Still got my copies of Red Alert 2 and Generals. Really enjoyed them but they won't run on my Mac.

The physical symptoms are awful as they make you feel as though you're dying, which then makes the mental side 10 times worse. Sorry to hear about what you've gone through but these issues can be solved mate.

It turns out it must have been panic attacks, which have the same symptoms as heart attacks, which is why I was shitting myself. The pain also lingers on an off but is in areas you associate with more serious physical health conditions. It randomly came on while simply watching Tele at midnight or so the other night, which was weird. It's not covid though mate, I've had none of the main symptoms and I've never even thought of it being that, but potential heart attacks or a stroke. Scary, but it feels alot more dangerous than it actually is from a physical perspective. The symptoms are similar to a heart attack or heart failure which was the scare. I'd never had them before nor ever thought I'd be prone to them. I would say I've always had a bit of anxiety as I'm always a bit fidgety and hyper but it's not something that affects me in public, I mean I wouldn't go to camp nou on my own, for example, if it did. I do like chilling in, but you need a balance, even if it's just working all week. I always associated these attacks with someone who is agoraphobic. I think it's the opposite for me and being stuck in the same house too much drives me nuts. I've been lazy for 2 months and sat in alot. This along with a change in sleep pattern, thinking too much and getting wound up all caught up on me. It happened 3 times in 3 days before I went to the hospital, as I thought my heart was packing in. The shock from the first caused the second 2 I think as my mind was racing. What I would say, is chill out, don't let issues going on wind you up too much and look after yourself. I've noticed @RandoEFC getting wound up alot in recent months and I would say relax because you could cause yourself alot of unneeded stress. @CaaC (John) the problem with many of us men is actually going to the hospital in the first place. We'd do anything to hold it off, but if you go, they can make you better, or in my case, reassure you.

I'm in hospital getting tests done due to chest pains and feeling horrible on and off for a few days. Not sure if I've developed a panic disorder out of the blue, or if it's my heart. Hopefully not the latter. I hope it's panic attacks as I could learn to deal with that. If it's my heart, well I don't fucking know. Scary times.