My nan is in the hospital, not looking good, I feel the anxiety and stress of the world bearing down on me, I don’t think I could forgive myself I can’t see her again. It is especially cruel because I was planning on surprising her with a visit in February. I wanted to be there with her on my birthday and pop’s passing day. A very ambivalent day for her.
Not looking for any pity or anything like that, I just needed to vent and it is easier on here with relative anonymity than anywhere else